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clueless ..... speechless ..... OMG!~

Love .... Hate ... or LOVE??

i just read one of the notes that my friend tagged me.... and seriously i fall in love with the words... it was wrote by محمد نور on Tuesday, February 8, 2011 at 12:41am (thank you!) =)

Pernah tak, satu masa dulu

kita suka sangat dengan seseorang.

Tiap-tiap hari nak tengok muka dia saja.

Tiap-tiap masa nak dengar cerita pasal dia saja.

Kalau orang tak nak sembang pasal dia pun,

kita saja suka nak sebut tentang dia.

Ungkitlah macam-macam cerita lama-lama,

asal saja kita sebut nama dia.

Semuanya tentang dia.

Kadang-kadang kalau nak berjumpa ramai-ramai,

kita berharap dia pakai baju sama warna dengan kita.

Biar orang lain cakap

"Wah, macam berjanji jer."

atau

"Wow, korang ni ada apa-apa ke?"

Dan kita pun jadi suka sangat kalau perkara tu terjadi.

Macam dilambung atas awan rasanya.

Senyum sampai tak nak surut.

Sukalah sangat rasanya.

Tapi, bila keadaan berubah...perasaan kita juga turut berubah.

Bila kita rasa perasaan kita dah berubah terhadap dia,

mulalah rasa malas sangat nak dengar pasal dia...

apa lagi nak bercerita pasal dia.

Benci sungguh-sungguh.

Kalau dulu cinta seratus persen, bak kata Mas

Idayu... sekarang sudah tukar pula...

benci seratus persen pula.

Kadang-kadang okey juga kalau mampu jadi begitu.

Kita tak perlu lagi berharap pada si dia itu.

Kalau boleh lupa terus lagi senang.

Kalaulah semudah itu untuk melupakan.

Orang kata, kalau nak jatuh sayang pada seseorang tu,

cukup hanya dalam beberapa saat atau minit atau hari sahaja.

Tapi, untuk melupakan... mungkin ambil masa seumur hidup.

Sakitkan, bila hati dah bertekad kata

tidak... tapi masih juga ada satu lagi jalur cemburu.

Bencinya, bila dah kental berazam untuk tidak lagi

peduli, tiba-tiba pula rasa sedih bila

teringat tentang dia.

Perasaan apa agaknya semua tu?

Sayangkah atau benci?

Atau...sebenarnya kita masih tuli dan tidak

pernah tahu....perasaan itu lilitan di hati.

Kalau tiada sesiapa hendak membukakan simpulannya,

kitalah yang perlu bertekad untuk membukanya.

Sedikit-sedikit, lama-lama pasti berjaya.

Daripada hidup bergenang air mata, lebih baik

belajar melupakan derita.

Lebih baik kan?

love

-cmasyaz-

Wanita...

just nak share this entry .... tadi baca buku pasal wanita....tajuk dier menjadi wanita yang bahagia.... :)

banyak sangat perkara2 dan ayat-ayat yang boleh dijadikan semangat hidup dan seterusnya menjadi wanita yang bahagia... ^^

what i remembered, dalam buku tuh tulis " Senyum walaupun kita dalam keadaan gelisah...senyum walaupun dalam keadaan sedih..senyum walaupun dalam keadaan gelisah..." soooooooo.. mari kita senyum!!!~

=) =) =) =)

haaaaaaaaaa... phrase ni plak amek dari my friends status kat MUKABUKU...hehehe its soooooo sweet.... and i think it will be the best guide to MEN out there to look for their partner .... =)

"Jangan tertarik kepada seseorang karana parasnya, kerana keelokan paras itu dapat menyesatkan.

Jangan pula tertarik kepada kekayaannya karana kekayaan dapat musnah.

Tertariklah kepada seseorang yang dapat membuatmu tersenyum, karana hanya senyum yang dapat membuat hari-hari yang gelap menjadi cerah. Semoga kamu menemukan orang seperti itu..."

SENYUM ..... :) ^^

-cmasyaz-

i will learn.... guide me ....

I just finished my conversation with a friend... beside someone that i use to rely on..now i know that i have another one.... he such a good adviser... and i learn a lots from him..... he told me the consequence of everything....the bads and the goods.... he told me how friendship can ends just by a simple action...... and i admit that he is totally right.... THANKS BUDDY!~

I was crying while having a conversation with him... i don't know why...but i learn the truth about how hard life it is....how hard to forget something which i know i can't get it rid from my head...but i know...he will guide me..not to forget about it...but to walk in the right path, to be me just like i am, and to becomes a good FRIENDS eventho its hurts a lot....

I don't want to put some higher expectation on "HIM" ... because i know we still remains best friends until the end of our life....but seriously i really2 want to say that i LOVE u idiot!~ but two things may happened if i say it.. either i loose "HIM" or i am HAPPILY EVER AFTER.....

I know god already creates a special partner for me...it just the times is still not right for him to appear.... maybe GOD knows that i'm not ready if that guy is someone that i never ever dream of before...i just leave it to HIM....because HE knows the best for me.....but deep down in my heart i wish it was him..the one who catch my attention....

To my buddy who listen to my problem....i know i can count on you....thank you for letting your fingers entertain me..please guide me....pimpin i slow-slow k.... i really need u.... and thanks for everything!!~ i love u so much babe.... :)

My buddy and HIM ... this is the only words that makes me feel strong every time i feel down....

" Its hurts to love someone when we can't tell them what we really feel..because sometimes we get hurt without them knowing. We get jealous even we have no right to feel that way. We want their time even if we are not in the position to demand for it. Although our hearts are breaking in silence, we still continue to love them because somehow in this hurtful love there is still hope of having simple moments with them even if it means being just a FRIEND..."

Our 4th reunion ..

Ok... its 4th!!!!!!~ yippieeeeees.....! dah kali ke 4 ker???wahhhh.... its shown that we are really damn close right... :D sooo.. a bunch of

thank you to those who makes this event meaningful .. it was really excited...fun!!... enjoy... and ect2..!

Like usual...ayam bakar is a must or known as activity ber-BBQ... hehehe other menu : beehun goreng made by nana , appolo cakes plus love latter , nugets , drinking water , and soft drink : the food was totally delicious... but for me...i don't take extra care about the food bcz at that time i was really enjoy the moment without thinking about hungry or what.....kalau gather ramai2 macam nih..makanan yg xmeriah pun boleh jadi sedap sebab makan ramai2....BEST!~

Owh!! lupe nak cakap kiteorg wat reunion kat mane... ok...

The vanue : Sungai Sendat (atas SIKIT dari ulu yam) sangat la sikit kan haziq.... :P

owh!! it was tooooooooooooooo FAR from ULU YAM... seriously...for a first timer i think it was really far... because of the name Sungai Sendat..so... definitely it was really SENDAT!!~ the road...sooo sendat....adeh!!!~ coverage cell-phone lagi la SENDAT!!! hahaha and after someone kuar dari air sungai kat sg.sendat tuh..owh..baju mereka juga sendat...hahaha sbb basah n melekat kat badan.....jangan kuning sangat ye otak tuh...adeh! :P

I remembered...after kuar je dari kawasan sungai tuh...my phone masuk msg bertubi2..hahahah tibe2 rase diri ini amat berharga sbb msg masuk banyak giler...hahahah and one of the msg is from my friend....dier tulis..." wahai cik cma...kenape setiap kali saya tepon...asik2 ade sore pompuan gedik cakap...sorry..out of coverage" hahahah uuuuuupssss!!!~ sorry kawan.....line saye begitu sendat waktu itu ye...hehehe :)

Same like last year.... we reach home at 10 pm... kuar umah at 8 am.... hehehehe.... after mandi2 ktorg p tgk wayang...cerita GREEN HORNET 3D tapi tak sume join sbb ade yg nak balik...ok...i have to admit here that i slept during the show..hahaha time cakap2 tido...time action bagun (sebab terkojut! mak ai..) hehehe

Then..after tgk wayang ktorg p makan kat bidayah...the same spot like before.. :) ni pun tak ramai yg join....two girls and five boys.... haziq,sharvin.fuad,mohd,raziemi,me, and syifa.. :) we talk-ing,chat-ing,gossip-ing,laugh-ing,eat-ing and moreeee.. :)

Pastuh.....mak, ibu, mama, mummy, ayah, abah, baba, daddy, papa masing2 dah call... "BILA MAU PULANG?" hahahaha and masing mula la GOT TO GO!!! MADAM BESAR dah call...hehehehe

It was really2 penat.....but yet its fun!!! thanks guys for the meaningful memories... :) will see you guys on our 5th reunion insyallah... :)

(credit to sharvin!!! thx!~ for the nice pic~ well... my pic is still under construction).. :P

YOU

i wish you were here!!!~ what am i gonna do if you were here???hmmmmm.... i want to talk to you... i want to see your smile... i want hang out with you all day long... i want share some story with you... i want u to sing me a song with your guitar... i wanna hold your hand... i want u to remember me... and i don't want to say good bye to you...!~ xoxo cmapoppins~

a hard day without hard disk...

i was soooo upsad when i suddenly realise that i lost my HDD (hard disk) last week... i miss my hdd damn much..!~ of course my sis piss off towards me and she did.... she ask me a Q that really makes me feel hurl.... i don't have any intention to lost it but urghhhh.... things that i regret most is my collection of SS501 songs, game show, talkshow and so on....all in that HDD.... seriously i'm piss off to the person who took it!!~ on only the most value collection... my late assignment when i was studying at KYM... my final project which i spent more than thousand dissapear in a blink eyes... i miss all the pictures inside that me with my family...my friends....and many more!!... my sister's convocation day...... i know that was the things that she really mad when she suddenly think about the HDD .... from the bottom of my heart..i'm sorry along!!~ i feel nothing without my gadget.... i'm lost..... :( xoxo, cmapoppins